As I reflect back on my life....I'm in awe...I'm humbled....I feel unworthy of the blessings in which the Lord has given. I look at the different seasons. The blooming season out my window and the seasons of life in which all things seem good and on track and then those seasons that we go through and ask, Why are you allowing this Lord? Where did you go Lord? Why do I feel so far from you? What have I placed in my life above you Lord God without even realizing it?? But when really He is always right there with His arms wide open....waiting, teaching, LOVING!
My Pastor shared something that the Holy Spirit is using in me the past couple of weeks. God is not disappointed in you...and another thing that another brother in Christ shared is that...God loves you....God even likes you...and He has chosen you! Thank you Lord! He sees something in me that I don't see in myself... I've been afraid of failing my whole life. I've been afraid of disappointing those around me especially my family. Actually it seemed that I did disappoint them most of the time. Also, afraid that I would never be good enough...that others would see that I'm not good enough.
Well, you know what?! None of us are good enough...that is why we need a Savior! Jesus has broken the bondage of those fears...those lies that I was listening to. Do I still deal with them...yes. Does satin try and still use them to hinder me...sometimes, but only if I give him the power to do so by not keeping my eyes, heart and mind on the truth of the One who has died to give me that freedom. It is really hard during those winter seasons. It is a daily choice to lay those fears and failures down and believe in the truth and hope that is given to us.
I've personally had to face a hard winter season! On the Baby be Blessed front we had more orders than sewers which God allowed to steer us around to where He wants us. In my personal life...dealing with the stress of getting everything done and balancing my faith and family. The Lord has also allowed some health issues in the past month. Again, a daily choice...sometimes minute by minute to say...okay Lord, you've allowed this. I don't know why but this is what I have been given today. Days have been tough. I have not handled every situation with the face and heart of Jesus. Praise God for His grace and forgivness! Praise God for those He has placed around me to encourage me in His word. To keep my eyes on truth! So to have been given those words...God is not disappointed in you, God loves you, likes you and has chosen you is exactly what I needed to hear and remind myself that I'm living this life for Him and His glory not my own. It's not about Tina, I just disappoint myself...but HE is not disappointed in me.
Where are you today? What season of life are you going through?? Are you listening to the lies of satin, or are you listening to the truth of Jesus Christ?? Make the moment by moment choice to pick up your cross and follow Him no matter what season of life you may be in. Sometimes that darn cross is heavier than others. Let us join together as believers and carry each others burden through prayer and encouragement! Please use the comment section of this post to share so we can be praying for you or someone you know!
Remember that He loves you and so do we!!